waking up

So like I read this book today while lacksadaisically studying for my law school test. I'm fascinated by these stories about people who "die" and wake up in heaven only to come back to earth as changed people. It seems to me to be a more and more documented phenomena.

People really seem transformed by these experiences. They walk the walk. It is akin to being struck down on the road to Damascus. Their lives become magnificent. They live more intuitively and less materialistically.

In the case of this woman here, she hears God tell her whom to tell her story to and it always turns out that it provides healing for the listener in some way. Her main message is the same as St. Paul's :
You are loved beyond measure by God. This is the message of all the mystics in one way or another.

So what if we were to really believe this? That we are the Divine's great beloved? What does that do to a person? One who has not seen the wounds in Christ's hands? Does it make one religion crazed?
Or can one really be ennobled?

I really want to know what radical self acceptance feels like. To know that everything is OK. Because it doesn't seem that OK to me really. I mean the politics, the wars, the climate, the wholesale distruction of everything.

My son believes in the body politic. That individuals can make a difference. I'm thinking of Law School in that light. So that maybe later in life I can work with him. As the possessor of a magnificent life unfolding into an activist... ? As a believer of God's great love can I enhance my impact on the people and issues I care about? God's love looks like a radical self love. Self love is the foundation of a magnificent life. The magnificent life is the basis of a person's true work in the world.
I'm trying to really get how this all works together.