commitment

So I went to the doctor today about a backache I've been having that is really bothering me lately. The doc confirmed that it was because of my scoliosis that I was having the pain. I remember when I was a kid, the docs at Kaiser told me I had scoliosis and wanted me to wear a back brace. I refused and they told me. "You don't feel it now but you will in your fifties." Well so they were right.

I'm still glad I didn't have to wear a back brace. But the pain is a killer at times. Especially when I sit at the computer. Which I do a lot. So I can call the pain doc, Doc Flappen. Or I can try to strengthen my core and stretch which sounds a lot like yoga.

There is a lovely yoga teacher in town and when I took classes she charged $10 a class. I guess that's a fair price and with the savings I'm getting, what with giving up the evil Lady Diet Shasta, I can even afford it.

I just need to commit to the practice. This commitment is the same issue I have about going to church, mindfulness class, taking walks, writing, and all the other things that take commitment. Like cleaning and cooking. I'm just not very committed about anything.

I think this is a problem of our culture really. Or of people my age. The younger kids seem better at commitment. If my kids are any example. It is we children of the '70's that don't like to commit. And I really don't know why that is. I was committed to school. And am even looking into a 3rd degree program.

I just know that My magnificent life must rely on a commitment to something. I just haven't heard the call yet. But I'm eagerly waiting.