In the moment

This quote is soooo true. I'm tending to live in the future these days, thinking when Richard get done with this job then we can etc, etc, etc. I have a lot of projects I want to do to swankify my house and also to get ready for Law School. I've realised that I can't work in my bedroom office because it is too far from Richard and the flow of things. But the kitchen table won't do any longer either.

So I want to switch out the rug and the sofa in the living room and at the same time add a small desk which Richard will build to size that I will place in the middle of the room. I will clear the shelves and make room for my books and papers.

But see how this is living in the future?

What I need to do is be mindful of the present which is the lovely dusk of a lovely day. The sky is pink and purple like a painting. Richard is building a fire in the big room. The dryer is running. It is very cozy. Now the pink has faded from the sky leaving it a smokey lavender. Just that quick. That is living in the now.

The UPS guy just came to the door bringing Richard his sandpaper. The dogs barked briefly. The sky is an eggshell blue fading to gray. I won't think about the past and the people I've lost. The people I've loved and lost. I will think about how glad I am to have Richard here right now. The birds have stopped singing.

Being mindful of the now is kind of boring. But it is peaceful.