sad

Ok so maybe it's not that bad. But I've had a sad day. It's terrible to be in conflict with someone you love. And it's bound to happen. You just can't live perfectly in this world.

So how do you move on? All that can be said has been said. No one is going to change his or her mind. So the job is to just carry on,

I have to think of my future in a new light. Move on and don't have expectations that others can't fulfill. So that means I need to focus on law school even if, as one of my "friends" said, I'll be starting my career with a cane.

Gosh I don't think of myself as being that old. I mean the fifties are the new forties right? And my other good friend Adele says she thinks people like us need these very structured lives with specific short and long term goals.

So I'm going to devote myself to my new career and to doing the work that comes with it. And I have to remember that I have my own family, meaning Steven and Ash.

They don't need me now. But they will. And Richard needs me. He would be a wreak without me. So I need to focus on what's at hand and stop wishing that things were like they were in times past.

The world has changed. People are not the same as they once were. I have to accept their new identities and move on. Immutable mutability.