friendship

When your young this is how you do it. It's so natural to make friends. And in  your twenties and thirties you make such good friends that you don't even think about your family or origin much at all anymore.

This is my new theory about why I haven't heard from my son. I know I was like this in my twenties. I had very good friends and I was enamored of them. I just didn't want to break to bubble of my new world to deal with my family.

I had close friends with whom I spent the holidays. I didn't think it bothered my parents at all. I thought they were fine without me. Well, in my case they had seven others to worry about. But still.
If I can survive a few more years of this, I may make it.

I'm going to Reno for Thanksgiving. I will see my nieces and nephews. I need to pay more attention to them. And by the way how did it get to be the holidays so quickly? At this rate law school will go by in a flash.

Anyway back to friends. I want Steven to have those kinds of deep, intense friendships you only have when you're young. So I have to let him go and be with those friends and do without him over the holidays and at other times as well. There's so much loss in having children; I'm surprised that anyone makes it through the process without going mad with grief.