happiness

I've somewhat been living like an orchid in a jar. So scrapes with the real world like yesterday's heist leave me worn out and with a migraine. I continue to feel badly about the need to take kids away form their parents. Yesterday's move was the right one, but still.

So I got some knitting done. Made one praire girl for my mom. And spent the evening trying to put together another gift box for Ashley. Ashley is someone who should have probably been taken away from her parents at a young age. For those of you who don't know she's my daughter-in-law in that she's been my son's partner for over ten years. I really like giving  her things.

Richard thinks I spoil Ash. But I never had a little girl who loved the girly things like clothes and jewelry so God has given me Ash. She's not easy to please. And most of the time I feel like I strike out but the joy I get when I get a hit is unparrelled.

I know I can't buy her love. But I'm not really trying to. I just want to see her happy. She's a joy when she's happy. She works really hard and has been a real support to my son so I love her. And I figure if if it makes me happy to send her gift packages so what? You only live once. Why short yourself the chance to make someone happy? There's so much unhappiness out there that given the chance to birng happiness, I want to carpe diem.