more mindfulness

So I went to the free mindfulness class again yesterday. This morning I wasn't feeling too magnificent. Actually I was kind of anxious. My sister reminded me that I'm always like this in September as the days grow shorter. So I did two things. One: I used my breath as an anchor and tried to really feel who I was. Two: I reminded myself of the definition of magificence which is just living your life with enjoyment.

Then I watched three episodes of the Wire, my new show, which is a really old show that I've never seen. It's pretty good, and I like seeing all the old technology. Then I made some of my special not too sweet cookies, then I started a book about Obama's mother. Then I took a nap.

I could have really had a magnificent day had I gone to the happy hour I was invited to by my old life coach, Katie. But I was feeling too anxious to go out. I think it is a magnificent thing to tell myself that I will try to do it next time. In fact I'll write Katie and ask her to keep me on the guest list.

I have mindfulness class tomorrow and then I will visit my elderly friend, Barb. I have to remember that there will be these days that seem wasted. As I wait for inspiration to tickle my curiosity just enough to lead me into another project. But that's the creative process. In fact just typing this down made me realize that the phrase "Mental Health" has been going through my mind all day. And just now I realize that I had started a whole new project last year about this time, and I feel excitment going through my veins. I had totally forgotten about this project. It's a long poem about being in a psyche ward. I'll have to sneak up on this piece and see if it will let me back in. Turtle steps as Katie says.